lol Spid, XC
is fun! If your not confident always remember there are lots of events around that do smaller courses - from (what we call trot pole size!) 18inches ... dunno how big that is in cm - probally around 45cm I guess? When I did my first ODE it was in feet and inches lol.
Everyone has to start somewhere and you don't have to be jumping huge to get a buzz out of it. I can still remember cantering around my first course hehe and it was LOTS of fun. Go watch a few ode's if your interested - it's a great sport
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