Ok, I was going to make a different account to post this so certain people don't judge me, but i'm just going to be completely honest, and ask for honest opinions. Here goes. I have a 11 year old standardbred mare, she was my second horse, instructor/agistment owner recommended her as a pleasure horse, told me we could train her; never happened, as instructor had other personal issues to sort out. Moved to another agistment and as soon as we got there, things pretty much went downhill (ie. rearing, being a pig etc.) She ended up having a number of issues, (back,teeth,saddle fit,bridle,feed etc.) fixed that all up, but was still nervous to even trot on her. I eventually got more and more confident on her, but I still had so much trouble riding her,teenager + Confused OTTSTB = NOT a good mix. Anyway, we started getting lessons with jayne lavender, both of our groundwork became very good,and things were looking up. But our riding is still crap. jayne has helped us tremendously, but I don't know whether it is worth persevering. I miss all the fun things, like trotting and cantering and jumping without having to constantly be on my game and stressed out and wondering WHY my horse is pigrooting, WHY my horse is throwing her head and rearing.. What do you guys think?