Well see this is the thing QSS, you know nothing about me so here is part 1 of correcting that... 1) I have been getting counselling for over 2 years 2) Counselling does jack sh!t (And Im even studying how to be a counsellor!) 3) I do partly blame myself but not for the reasons you assume 4) You have no right to tell me I require counselling regardless of if I do or dont already get it, however maybe a "suggestion" for counselling may have turned this conversation into a different direction. Gee still attacks on Cav and not back on track....disappointing. And...while people keep aiming questions at me, it will never get back on track and probably end up closed. In fact, I am surprised it isnt already but then again some people here (wont name names but they will know who they are) seem to think I am besties with a mod....let me clear that "assumption" up right now also, I am besties with no mods. Get it, got it, good! * I am happy to disclose personal information to people as long as they are willing to listen with "open minds" and not ASSUME before they have heard the facts and I'll be expecting an apology from you QSS on this forum after we meet.